Growing pains

Being in your mid-twenties is WEIRD.

It’s exciting, but constantly challenging.

I feel like I’m behind but so proud of how far I’ve come at the same time. I’m thankful where God has put me in my life but feel discontent with the timeline.

Trousdale (an amazing band, look ‘em up) released a song called “Growing Pains” that encapsulates how most people feel in their twenties so well. It dropped while i was working a double washing dishes at my barista job. I’ve caught myself playing it over and over, so timely and addictively catchy.

GIVE IT A LISTEN!

This push/pull has been felt in all my ventures, especially the kitchen.

I’m excited to try new recipes for the year and have some developed for my own ventures, but lose ambition or the drive to actually make the recipes.

A great example was one of Justine Doiron’s most recent winter recipes involving white fish, caramelized cabbage and a beautiful broth.

It is GORGEOUS.

I bought all the ingredients, then kept calling it “cabbage fish pasta soup”, and lost my appetite and gumption to make it….

Let me clarify, that was terrible naming on my part, Justine makes it sound appetizing and much more glamorous.

But, we refuse to be wasteful so I ended up (poorly) pan-frying my fish and roasting the cabbage in the oven.

Wasn’t my worst meal but was definitely my ugliest so far this year….

sometimes, a meal is just a meal….

Even amidst writing, I’ll be ecstatic to write, bursting with ideas, then boom, all my motivation VANISHES.

But here we are for discipline’s sake.

Maybe having discipline in one hand and grace in the other is what makes up growing pains.

Getting through writing/cooking blocks and finding new ways to find release and creativity.

In other news…

Recently, I’ve invested in watercolor painting?!

my first piece: baba ghanoush ingredients

Shoutout to my roommate, Kylie, for inspiring this new hyper-fixation. There’s also something so cathartic about creating for the sake of creating and not for the sake of being good.

I’ve also been reading more?? So fun!

I read three whole books in January

(personally, this is pretty triumphant)

Overall, I’m going through a season of potential, a lot of unknowns, and waiting on God to do the rest.

Thanks for reading through this semi-word-vomited post. I’m glad you’re here reading my word vomit, it means a lot.

For now, I promise to not slander anymore cabbage fish pasta recipes with faulty names and pray for more creative sparks in the kitchen!

With Love,

Cara